Heart attack

So, I'm too flexible and can't listen to my own boundaries - therefore, I have to create them - huge revelation. Anyhoo, I'll make this fast - a new friend was telling me about something big that had happened in her life the other day. Someone special from her past had called her to tell her that he had always loved her, and now more than ever - what she was communicating to me was that he had realized something about his past and had finally reached the point of acceptance, which freed up some space in him to feel love - true love, not some concocted needy version of love- for the person that had compensated for his feelings of misunderstanding of the person who's purpose is to communicate love with you. His realization freed her - a knot untied - clogged - a clogged blood vessel will cut circulation through the entire body. When her friend unknotted this significant situation in his life - he was able to have clarity about the relationship he had had with my friend. We are all drawn to each other for many times reasons that we are unclear. It's like instructions that we can fold up and put away in a drawer. when it's time to understand why? - we find ourselves opening up that drawer and being perceptive to those instructions. when we can free ourselves of the deception that we have lived and created in relationships, then we are thus freeing the related persons involved in the situation too. That one clogged vessel in the body becomes our death - being the clogged vessel in human connection.

Ouch, my back - to yoga

Since the move, my yoga practice has been frantic - a downward spiral. I've been eager - overly eager to do that greedy kind of yoga. I've known that it's wrong - I know better. Well, I guess I would not have noticed it as much - I'm comparing this to an injury, a spiritual or truth injury. My injury has brought me closer to the truth - back to the path that brings me more within the rhealm (?) of awareness. I went to some hot yoga classes that I thought were really stupid. They were so wrong for me. My back is aching. I 've been ignoring the pain and doing things with my body driven my ego that is making the pain worse and worse. Tonight with Mitra, a wise, wise teacher, whose words I feel so strongly - she generously explained to me that I am hyper-flexible. This is in life and yoga practice - "Life is yoga," she said. A huge lump got in my throat when she told me that I was too flexible with the people in my life. She explained that I will bend over backwards for them. I realized that this is true. In my yoga practice, I have to create my own boundaries b/c my body does not know them. I have to stop before the sensation, or the sensation will injure me. What feels good is too far. I am realizing that I have no boundaries in life. I do let others be my boundaries. I am so glad I have found Mitra. She has brought me back to yoga tonight.