I went to visit my parents the weekend. I had an experience that stirred my emotions big-time. As I was taking the 4 hour drive back to my home, I was crashing pretty hard, focused solely on the downward spiral of my emotions. Suddenly I realized that I would not have traded the experience that I had. I felt joy and love and gratitude for having the experience. I see it more clear now. I remember when I was at a meditation workshop, and we were sitting around in a circle discussing various things about our experiences of meditation. A beautiful clear blue-eyed girl shares with everyone that the previous day her husband had told her that he wanted a divorce. She explained that years or even months ago - without a meditation practice, she would have canceled her trip and spent days curled up on the floor in deep dispair - and much more. She explained that this news was really upsetting to her, and for a few hours, she did remain curled up on the floor, but then she realized that moment. She explained that the deeper her meditation practice is, the shorter period of time there is between the dreaded experience and the realization of the moment - the ego. I thought this was really beautiful, and when I thanked her for her sharing, I had to hold back tears - she was so honest.
While I was making the trip back home today, I stopped at a gas station mid-point. After having this realization in the car, I went in the station, and it was amazing. When I walked in, I heard someone saying, "I'll keep a smile no matter how bad things get." Everyone in the station was so genuinely loving. As I was waiting in line, I heard a man say, "I'm doin good, I woke up this morning." He wasn't sarcastic how he said this, he really meant it. I could not help but smile in this place. It was full of warmth.
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